With so many of my best of friends there (the only other American city with more friends would be Pittsburgh), I wish that's the next place we can go. Daniel's applied for a faculty position at one of the universities there, but the chance of him actually getting the position in this dismal job market is bleak. I can't help but feel a little resentful by how I'm no longer as mobile or free to make my own decisions about what to do or where to go. Ideally, I would live in either Taiwan or somewhere on the West Coast. But my husband's a more Midwestern or East Coast kind of guy. One of the things I asked him about when he asked me to marry him was whether or not we could one day live in Taiwan, because it's where I feel like I most belong. He said yes. And on that count, I had agreed to marry him. And then it seemed like, once he "got" me, my life has become a series of giving up things that matter a great deal to me...all for the sake of pleasing him.
Of course it makes me sad. Sometimes, marriage feels like one big shackle.
